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Sunday, February 1, 2009

True to Self

I saw The Wrestler. I really love independent movie-making. Don't get me wrong, I love my Hollywood endings too. If SATC didn't have a Hollywood ending, I would have felt completely swindled. But I love a raw, one camera angle film that exposes the harsh realities people face. I can't really think of an example at the moment as I'm rushing this. But that's exactly what this film is. There's not a single piece of Hollywood in this movie, the closest is probably Marsi Tomei but honestly, they dirtied her up pretty well. If you're expecting pretty, sexy, or something fluffy, skip it. This is raw and honest. And I loved it. I cry easily, but I shed some tears at two points. I don't have anything to gauge Mickey Rourke's performance against, but I can say that I didn't think I was watching a movie, I thought I was watching a documentary about someone. So to me, he did well, I believed he was that guy. I can see why Bruce got behind the film with the donation of the song. It was about the struggle of how hard a life can be, and how you have to stay true to yourself, no matter what. And that even when you're true to yourself, the outcome may not be the best.

And....that's as good a segue as any....

Believe me, almost everyone has told me that PT guy is a flake. Some even said, he's a PT - of course he's a flake. I'm not going to take that stance. I'm going to stay open-minded and objective when I meet him today at 2 pm. Yes, today. At 2 pm. No ifs ands or buts. We spoke on the phone last night and he was so genuine and sincere and interested in meeting me that he didn't want to wait another week. So I moved up a notch in being more important than pre-game superbowl at least. And I do, from the bottom of my heart, appreciate you all sticking by me and making sure I don't lose my head. But oh, did I mention I did? Lose my head a little bit? Just a bit. When I saw him on web cam. Yeah. Mega cutie. Gulp.

As I was about to post this....The flake canceled. His brother needs him before the game. THEN WHY DID YOU MAKE THE PLAN WITH ME IN THE FIRST PLACE IDIOT? He had a few beers. He doesn't get it. He thinks he can just "make it up to me." Sigh. Strike 3 buddy. Strike 3. How many strikes did Carrie give Big?


Graciela said...

He's way past flake...in my book, he's transitioned to asshole.

Sarah said...

He's not your Big. Big occasionally did something amazing. What has The Flake done? He seems to be an expert at disappointing you.

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