- Take no work home from office. 85% success
- Dinner & Communications 6-8 PM (no later than 8 PM) 5% success
- Meditation (between the hours of) 8-10 PM 10% success
- Nordictrack (between the hours of) 8-10 PM while watching TV or reading FAIL
- Bed 11 PM Sun-Thurs 20% success
- Contact the hypnotherapists. success
- Search for used treadmill. success
- Look for ways to cut monthly budget. FAIL
- Stick to the Off/On lists below; assess after 30 days: February 2. FAIL
Absolute Failure on the On/Off Lists about 20 days into it. Just stopped caring about what I was eating and trying to lose weight. Oddly, about the same time I finally had sex again. In theory, nice idea to feel so good that you don't care about what you eat. In reality, doesn't work for me as I quickly gained massive poundage. I can't deny the stress at work of interviewing 6 candidates for 2 jobs was likely a major factor as well.
And in the past few days in particular, I've gone out of my way to eat whatever I want. Five Guys Burgers & Fries? Yes. Taco Bell? Yes. Pizza? Yes. Coldstone? Yes.
Why did I do that? Well, addicts will rationalize their behavior on anything. But this was a very conscious effort. I felt the approach was similar to that of an addict entering rehab, when they have a drink or a hit of narcotics on the way to their detox. Like one last binge? Or a prisoner's last meal request before they face the death penalty.
I did it as a reminder, that deciding what you eat MUST be a conscious effort. Interestingly, after eating what I thought I wanted, it was obvious it wasn't what I wanted. And also, if I can drive 20 minutes and two towns over for some sugar, cream, milk and ice blended into the best shake in the world, then I can damn well WANT to lose weight enough to put in the EFFORT.
So, after several weeks of research about what to do and where to go next in my "once and for all" weight loss efforts, I have designed a method that seems right for me and I'm going to describe it below. I'm excited about it which is key.
But first, I thought it might be worth noting what products or programs I considered that I am not going to be trying for one reason or another. If you message me with a response address and want to know why, I'll tell you.
Ideally, my choice would be either Medifast or Optifast, because they're medically supervised clinics.
But I can't. The minimum cost would be about $1,200 for 12 weeks. (Hmm, no wonder so many people are overweight?) So, instead I researched as much of the supplement products of those medically approved programs as I could and I've purchased the products or equivalents. I'm incorporating what I can into my own "TrueHeartFast" program.
In addition to the no refined carbs, eating natural (shopping just on the outside of the grocery aisles), and eating as clean as I can, I also will be incorporating the following items and efforts which are a direct reference from those above medical plans.
- Vitamin D-3
- Liquid Hoodia 500MG
- Omega 3s 1000 MG
- Daily Multivitamin
- Whey Protein (20 grams of protein and only 3 carbs)
- Liponic Colon Cleanse* (ingredient details at the end of this post for those curious)
"Hoodia? That stuff doesn't work."
Well, you're right I think the low-grade crap that's out there doesn't work, but I think the high-grade pure plant I found does and those medical plans above include it. I used a lot of independent reviews to make my decision.
"Do you think you're that nutritionally out of whack to need those extras?"
Yes. Absolutely. We're not just talking about a body that has to lose 10 or 15 lbs and has a slice of cake when it shouldn't. We're talking about a body that prefers carbohydrates 24/7. It is broken and misfiring on all levels. I know myself. No one else does. And if I am taking something I don't need, my body will just excrete it.
In addition to the supplements just listed above, I'll be starting hypnotherapy which I believe will help me with the sub-conscious sabotage I have done to myself since childhood.
And the above admissions right there should cause any potential dates to give up interest in me if they've read this. Yes, one of the first rules out there about dating is to stay away from addicts. And addicts shouldn't date (I didn't say shouldn't have sex but the programs do). Oh well. I have to heal myself first anyway.
In addition, I'll be picking up a used treadmill (with the help of a dolly, a rental truck, and Harry Pottypants' help) next Saturday, and it will replace the ski machine in the living in front of the TV.
And last but not least...I've cleaned house of what I've identified as negative triggers.
For the past 6 months, there's been a bikini-clad woman showing up in my mailbox. Compliments of my dear friend Sweden who meant well. But this is just a great example of...how sick am I? The sad truth? I wasn't able to even crack open a page of one of the magazines, despite headlines like "I've lost 116 lbs and you can too." I can't get passed the covers. Covers of women who may not look like any of us thanks to airbrushing we all realize, but who certainly look a hell of a lot more like most of you than they ever will of me. Ever. EVER. Even 100 lbs less, I'll never look like that. And I don't want to be reminded. So, no more self-sabotage. I gave the magazines away.
I also put all the clothes that don't fit into the left side of the closet. They'll be there when I lose, but not a moment before.
I've put the scale and the mirror away for now. They'll be there when I *FEEL* better, rather than using them to decide how I feel.
Positive, positive, positive.
Lastly, I'm placing an unusual but necessary restriction on eating: no eating out for 30 days. I will control all my eating by what I bring into this house or bring to work. I have proven I'm good with that.
And if on some bizarre chance a guy wants to meet me in this crazy month of commercialized romance, it'll have to be a non-eating meeting. I wouldn't rule out drinks but again, that's a slippery slope and alcohol is deadly to a weightloss plan.
P.S. The supplements will arrive in a few days. I'll be sure to document my experience with them.
*Colon Cleanse Tablet Supplement Details
Consisting of synergistic ingredients to enable proper lymph drainage, strong liver function and assimilation of nutrients into the bloodstream. These lipotropic ingredients (agents) emulsify as well as transport fat to be converted into energy. They also help to deactivate and expel harmful toxic substances from the body. This ensures that fat is shed from the body in a safe and natural manner.
Within this group there are four major lipotropic agents. The first ingredient/agent Inositol Hexaphosphate, (not your ordinary called Inositol Hexaphosphate, is a lipotropic agent that metabolizes fats and cholesterol. It also aids in transporting fat in the circulatory system along with the expulsion of excess fat within the blood. Inositol Hexaphosphate is also known to combat cancer and lower cholesterol levels.
The second major lipotropic ingredient, DL-Methionine, is a lipotropic amino acid which not only reduces fat and cholesterol levels, but also increases dopamine, norepinephrine, and serotonin. It also acts as an antidepressant. Moreover, dl-methionine has been found to be as effective, or better than most prescription antidepressant medications.
The third major lipotropic ingredient, Alpha Lipoic Acid, promotes fat loss by preferentially shunting glucose to muscle cells away from fat cells. ALA is also a coenzyme in the metabolic pathway that generates energy in the body. It also removes heavy toxic metals and protects the liver against many toxins.
The fourth major lipotropic ingredient, Chromium picolinate, is a rare nutrient of which 98% of the American population do not get enough in their diet. A diet high in sugar can decrease the body's store of chromium. Many physicians use chromium picolinate to treat Type II diabetes or insulin resistance. In addition, this unique lipotropic slenderizing pill makes you much less susceptible to diseases such as:
* fatty liver
* sluggish lymph drainage
* diabetes and insulin fluctuations
The overall cleansing and strengthening of the hepatic and lymphatic systems help your liver to function at optimal levels, making it easy to focus energy on losing weight rather than fighting to prevent diseases. Free from the chemical trappings of other leading brands of lipotropics, our all-natural formulation blows the competition out of the water in terms of potency, efficiency, and fat-expulsion capability. Our made-from-scratch formula contains:
* No Yeast
* No Starch
* No Chemical Additives
* No Artificial Dyes
* No Salt
* No Sugar