Losing Weight; Finding Men

"Never make someone a priority in your life when you are just their option."

Friday, September 28, 2007

PMS Stall

total lost: 37 lbs
total days: 102


No loss. Stalled for PMS. Not good. Unrelated but quite cosmic, the woman I had found to do my hair can't do it this Saturday.

So...it isn't meant to be right now. It will be when it is meant to be.

Sunday, September 23, 2007

Hair We Come Into the 50s

total lost: 37 lbs
total days: 97

Well, continued progress. I can't ask for more than that, especially when I am dying for pizza! 3 lbs to haircut. I'm thinking - would I jinx myself to make the appointment for this Saturday or would it motivate me?

You see, Saturday night is that ridiculous bachelorette dinner I have to attend. A bunch of 20somethings, me and one woman older than me. I'm not interested in dressing to impress or anything, but a nice cut and color to camouflage the grays would help me feel good. Of course, if the cut is terrible, it'll make it even harder to go.

Also, going away from next Tuesday through the following Sunday. So if I don't do it this Saturday or Sunday, then I'm waiting another two weeks. Hmmm. Decisions, decisions. Not the hardest thing to decide. I think I'll schedule it.

Wednesday, September 19, 2007

Loving Yourself

total lost: 36 lbs
total days: 93

Yeah baby, that's what I'm talking about! Stay true to yourself and stay true to what you know is right and works for you, and you will see the results of your faithfulness and love for yourself!

The shoulder pain is there but it is not stronger than you are anymore. You keep up the stretches and the strengthening. And stretch out that lower back, and make sure you walk! Walking loosens those muscles we use while sitting all day at a desk.

And water! Water is the thing! Drink that water and that detox tea and close your eyes. See Sena watching over you and know that you can reach your goals.

There is a love growing that will not diminish and fade away. It is the love you've been looking for all your life. The one that is unconditional. The only kind of love that can come from within yourself.

Embrace it.

Saturday, September 15, 2007

Phoenix Rising

total lost: 32 lbs
total days: 89

One day away from 3 months...not such great stats when all is said and done, but it sure beats being 32 lbs HEAVIER! Hell yes!

This last month I have not lost much, but again, I will blame that on the pain I was in. So just 4 lbs lost in the last 30 days. No real change in the "future hourglass" measurements either. That's OK. I know my body is now adjusted to the new eating plan, and I will have to step up the exercising.

I'm ready, the cooler weather is just about upon us. Fall, my favorite season just before winter, my birth season. Now I will come alive again. I will be the phoenix. The pain in my side is gone, it isn't gallbladder, it isn't something more serious. Amen.

So I'm ready. Let's go.

On a sad note, the cat in the photo (on the top right of the page), Smokey Josephine, has left us. She was a wild child hunter, and I will think of her up there now with her great surrogate mother and my guardian angel, Sena.

When I started this weight loss project, we were a house of 5, a strong trinity of female power. Now we're a house of 3 and I am the only female. I hope that I gained their strength of spirit.

Tuesday, September 11, 2007

Biggest Loser & Britney's "Fat"

No change.

Are you inspired or dismayed by the Biggest Loser TV show? I think I am both, equally.

Check this winner out. I'm actually most impressed by the 3rd photo - woman in blue dress. Dramatic difference.


Yes, that's me whining. Actually I wouldn't want Jillian Michaels breathing down my neck for all the money in the world; I'd quit.

I have 10 lousy lbs until goal for haircut - 40lbs! So stalled.

I know I have decreased the water consumption. Cannot figure out why. Now I must be very conscious of it when instead I was just downing it like mad.

I should also recheck the fat cals of what I'm eating. I am getting bored with turkey. Might go back to chicken for a week.

Also, I'll be going to that October 27 wedding solo. Lenny's godson is getting married in PA, of course. So, I guess I'll just find some hot single wedding guest to dance with....umhmmmm.

And on a note I cannot even believe I am blogging about: Britney's "fat" performance at the VMAs. Seriously, read that. Come on people. What are we saying here? IF she's fat, then 60-70% of the female population should just give up right now. I figure that many are over size 10. Yes, wrong wardrobe choice, not a fan of hers to begin with...but I think it was overblown. Just like everything else we as a society tell young girls. Sigh.

Friday, September 7, 2007

Weight Loss Notice

Just a quick note to say that one of the loudmouth witches at work zoomed by me, then stopped, then dramatically turned around and eyeballed me.

"Heyyyyy is it me or have you lost a ton of weight?"

Wow, I knew it would happen some day but I never thought it would happen like that. SO many answers came to mind:

"No it is you, your vision must have gotten fatter..." OK so that doesn't make sense, I still wanted to say it! Along with mind your own business, have you gained a ton of weight, just because I've lost weight doesn't mean I want to talk to you about it, and my personal favorite Shut the Fuck Up loudmouth.

Instead I said "Nice of you to say..."

She pressed me, can you believe it? "So, did you?"

Um, if it looks like a duck, sounds like a duck, it must be a dumbass gossip whore standing in front of me!!

I refused to answer. I changed the subject, "Hey what did you do with your dog when you went on vacation?"

POOF goes the subject of my weight loss, thankfully.

It is one thing for friends to notice. That will make me glow. It is quite another thing for the nasties at work to comment on it like it is some juicy piece of gossip. That will just make me glower.

Thursday, September 6, 2007

Trying to Heal from Back Pain

total lost: 30 lbs
total days: 80

Well I haven't lost. But I've maintained. This is good. This helps me see that I could survive, I could live like this. I've even had a meal out. I've even had some alcohol and some carbs (it will forever be yummy to me) so I know that I could maintain once I reached goal.

But the reason I know I haven't lost is because of the back pain. It just stole all my energy and spirit. I can say that today is the first day in more than two weeks that I can sit here without pain. The pain is from a combination of weakened muscles and stress so it is hard to know what is going to set if off at any given point. But I hope this improvement lasts as I try to strengthen the muscles in the area where the fat has most disappeared. Hopefully I can get to a point where I'm walking Chad again around the lake as well.

So I'm trying not to feel disappointed. See this is what happens when I set goals. All that talk about the wedding at the end of October and how I wanted to be down another 30 lbs. Since I said that I've hardly lost anything. This is why it is better for me to just look day to day and not so far ahead. That is how I lost the last 30 lbs. I didn't have a set goal date. And it just happened.

you're like butter to me

Just a Lovable Party Girl

Just a Lovable Party Girl
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