Mom's in the hospital. As explained to me by my sister, she went in for unexplained abdominal pain and a cat scan, heart and blood tests. They found nothing. No clots, no blockages, no gall bladder in distress, etc. They were about to discharge her as they couldn't admit her "just for being in extreme pain," when they noticed her oxygen level was way low. Like 10 points lower than what is considered "bad." Well, that seems to indicate that her CPOD / emphysema situation is getting worse. So they admitted her, and all I can say is good thing the Sox aren't playing. She would be pissed.
Honestly, I have a hard time keeping up with what's wrong as so many doctors over a 20 year span have diagnosed her and then conflicted with one another.
In addition to the CPOD, she has both types of arthritis, as well as Sjögren's Syndrome, a damaged sciatic nerve, type II diabetes, hiatal hernia, cataracts, and I'm sure I'm forgetting some other conditions. I also think it can only be expected that she suffers emotionally in a depressed state. For 20 years, I've been told she may not live much longer. Some of that time, I know she has wanted to die. I can't imagine the pain she deals with. In some ways, she is my heroine. In other ways, she is my forewarning sign: do not go down this path, avoid this future, etc.
I am in "management training" all week. Learning that being a manager is a new profession. I wish someone would tell my company that. They think I can continue to DO the work as well as supervise others doing it. Even the course instructor found that to be somewhat alarming. Lovely. Stress anyone?
I could not make it to the gym for resistance training. Too tired.
Food is being provided at this training. Breakfast a corn muffin (not good). Lunch was salad (unsatisfying). By 6pm I needed protein in the worst way. Made an egg white omelette with chicken, peppers, and onions.
I need to be better prepared tomorrow. Making a whey protein shake for brekkies.
Losing Weight; Finding Men
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