Losing Weight; Finding Men

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Wednesday, July 18, 2007

Whine, whine, whine

Same place I stalled last time....no loss.

I feel lousy tonight. I feel whiny. Why does everything have to be so difficult? Why do I have to suffer this way about food?

My mom sent a gift basket for Lenny, thanking him for helping out with Sena. And for some reason, because he wasn't able to come pick it up tonight, I got very very upset. I know it is because just about everything in that gift basket is stuff I cannot eat, including homemade items that my mom went through a lot of effort to make: Zucchini bread and oatmeal cookies. Why can't I just be normal? Why did I have to get so affected (or infected as the case may be) when I was a child by all the influences around food? Yet, even when I was very young, I apparently chose starch over other food choices. I still think there's an imbalance in me, and that is partly why I crave the carbs.

This carb-limiting way of eating is supposed to help retrain my body to process food correctly. Well I can tell you tonight, it is going to take a damn long time.

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