Losing Weight; Finding Men
"Never make someone a priority in your life when you are just their option."
Sunday, February 3, 2008
Seeking My High
Pounds lost: 11 lbs
Pounds to go: 40 lbs
I went again last night to the gym. I showed up at 10 pm, mostly because I checked the tv show lineups and decided there were a few things I would watch at that time. Hey, whatever gets me there right? I cannot believe what the scale says this morning. Another 3 lbs down. Cue the music (you gotta hear this, to know how I'm feeling...)
I am a million miles and workouts away from every being conditioned like a boxer, but I do feel inspired. I am seeking that endorphin high that comes from exercise. I know it exists; I've enjoyed it before. I just always knew that it was hard to obtain. I haven't felt it yet, through my two workouts so far, but I know it is ahead of me, and when I feel it, it will feel better than any comfort food might taste or feel settled in my belly.
Is it replacing one addictive behavior for another? Perhaps but I highly doubt I'll ever be the type of person who says to my friends or my lover, "I'm sorry, I can't go out with you tonight, I have to go workout instead." Remember, ultimately, when I weigh 160 lbs again, I am seeking a balance in my life. And once I have reached that place, I will know what it feels like. I will be a balanced person, healthy, renewed, reborn, and ready for all that life wants to offer me.
Details on my workout, in the order it was done:
starting heart rate was 89
10 mins treadmill to warm up the body (like the trainer said)
3 reps (8/10/12) of 30 lbs with Abs
15 lbs with pecs
30 lbs with leg press (that works the gluts)
40 mins more of treadmill at 2.5 - 2.8 speed with 2.0 incline and heart rate between 121-130
Today I will rest, and maybe stroll the neighborhood with Chad and play frisbee, but no gym. I have to cook for the week anyway, and the superbowl is tonight.
How do I feel? I feel good!