Just have to vent...
My mother just can't understand this. I told her how much I'd lost in two months and all she could say was "Oh that's too much too soon. Do you really think that's wise?" Like she's some expert? Absolutely not, she is a constant Chicken Little worrying type. Heaven forbid that anything goes well. And I really felt like she burst my bubble. I held my own, I told her "Do you really think it was wise for me gain 40 lbs in the last year?" That made her quiet. Of course, no one knew that. You don't count the pounds on the way up. We don't sit there and say "Yup, up another pound, how great." But I felt lousy after talking to her.
At least I do have Lenny's observant "You're looking great hon, I really see a difference" comments and warmth through this. For all his flaws, he has always been very supportive of my self esteem. He knows how hard it is for me to deal with my mother's negativity. I think he knows because his ex-wife was like that with their son. Very manipulative.
I know it is going to take another 30 lbs before the loss is really visible. I have a wedding at the end of October to attend. That's my next social engagement goal to reach. So I just keep repeating to myself: 12 lbs more until haircut, 30 lbs more until buying a new dress for the wedding.
And the big question...am I going alone or will Lenny come with me? Who knows. We'll see.
Losing Weight; Finding Men
"Never make someone a priority in your life when you are just their option."