Losing Weight; Finding Men
"Never make someone a priority in your life when you are just their option."
Wednesday, August 15, 2007
Love my friends, but not with food
total lost: 28 lbs
total days: 59
Well, I had a very enjoyable weekend with my friend Sweden visiting. I did indulge in some carbs. I managed to skip the potatoes (no small feat for me) on Saturday, but I could not resist her urging to share a dessert (brownie and ice cream and fudge) nor could I resist the margarita. Does that make me an alcoholic as well as a starchaholic? I don't know. On Sunday I went even further into the depths of carbohydrates when we went to Holsten's, the now legendary ice cream parlor at the end of the Sopranos. Grilled cheese, fries, onion rings. I had them all. And a small ice cream sundae. I enjoyed every minute of eating it all. But I really fell into a slump, a lethargic slump. I didn't want to do anything, I got a massive headache, and I felt like I couldn't move. Walk around the lake? Are you kidding me? I couldn't get out of bed. I'm not sure this is 100% due to the carb and fat intake, but it had to have something to do with it.
So I was going to wait an entire week to weigh, but this morning I couldn't pass by the scale without it seeming to taunt me. So I got it over with. OK, so no loss. Tomorrow is 2 months on the program. 28 lbs is not bad for having fallen off twice now. I don't want to limit my social life, my enjoyment of friends and family because of food. That just doesn't seem right! I think the balance lies in moderation. The question is can an addict find moderation? I'm not so sure they can, because the very nature of an addict is that they cannot find middle ground. And so the battle continues.
Love is the answer to the question How...