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Tuesday, June 10, 2008

The Good and the Bad

morning weight: 256lbs

The bad news is that it was 97 degrees on June 9 and I thought I was going to melt.

The good news is that it was so hot that the thought of eating made me feel ill.

The bad news is that the heat also makes me not want to exercise, even in AC settings.

The good news is that I went to the gym anyway, spurred on by (bad news) the fact that I had mini dot ice cream, a pretzel, and some french fries while at the Belmont Stakes this weekend.

The bad news is that I could only get up to 2.8 for an hour, and therefore I now think I might be stuck at this weight for the next 3 months. Even with the AC cranking in there, I still walked in with an elevated heart rate by about 20 bpm.

The good news is that I'm not where I was last year, 40 lbs heavier and full of worry and anguish over Sena's cancer.

The bad news is that lately I am having really bad thoughts again about her death. I cry every day for a few minutes. I really thought I was done with those thoughts and the daily tears.

Well, that's just part of the good and the bad I guess.

1 comment:

Carolina Girl said...

My friend Erin is experiencing the same thing right now. I feel so sad for her. (for both of you) Her dog passed away last October of cancer also. She told me that she'll be fine for a while, and then all of a sudden grief will hit her like a tidal wave. I think it's ok to have a really good cry when you need to. And for as long as you need to!

Good for you for going to the gym! This heat is making it almost impossible isn't it!

Thanks for your comments on my blog! It's good to know there are others out there that feel the same way! :o) I agree...HBO is definitely more fun!

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