Losing Weight; Finding Men

"Never make someone a priority in your life when you are just their option."

Monday, June 2, 2008

Food...always there

Don't even talk to me about the scale. I think I'm not going to get on it for a week. I will however, continue to exercise.

The worst thing for me right now is the simple fact that there is no one else in my life on a regular basis. Wait, friends, before you get upset, let me explain. There's no one to come home to or to touch base with every night or every morning or every afternoon to keep me "grounded" for lack of a better word. I have to be that for myself, and when I'm out of whack....well then, I'm out of whack.

But even if there was someone....there is no reasonable relationship that would allow the person to constantly be in support mode. That would be negative codependency.

But food....is always there. In this pampered country, in this middle-class life, in my singleton Bridget Jones, Carrie Bradshaw world, FOOD is always there. Available 24/7 even. When there is no one else, and my willpower breaks and my stress rises above my head, food is there.

And when the food is finished, the stress and the problems remain. Are they any easier to deal with? I don't know. But I know my stomach is comforted. :-( And then the self-hatred cycle begins.

Maybe I should give in to Lenny's persistent efforts to play grown-up romper room. At least then, I'd be hating myself AND having sex. :=|

WAH! Big and Carrie have ruined it for me!

Bachelorette is on tonight...oh boy! Time to exercise and laugh.

1 comment:

Carolina Girl said...

I could NOT have said that any better! So true.

you're like butter to me

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