My old friend. My old frenemy. How are you? I ask, because I have no idea. I ask, even though I really couldn't care less.
I don't care how you taste anymore. Granted, I'd rather not put something shitty tasting in my mouth, after all, my taste buds aren't dead for god's sake.
But really, I smell you and I don't really have an oh-my-god-I-can't-wait-to-have-that-between-my-lips reaction anymore. Gone are the days of thinking about what I can eat, when I can eat, and how much I can eat.
Two bites of this warm pecan pie, and I was done. Wha!? Yeah. The thought of taking another bite really displeased me. The thought of bringing it home? Eh. No desire.
I don't recognize this type of thinking at all. Not for 40 years. But strange as it might seem to not give any thought to food, I honestly hope this type of thinking sticks around. I feel free from a trap I'd been setting for myself year after year after year after year. I owe it all to the supplement that has turned off my subconscious "need" to comfort myself with you....
So food, I'll be seeing you around. I just don't have the burning desire to consume you anymore as if I were starving to death.
Hopefully, I can transfer that desire to other areas of my life instead.
Best wishes.
4 comments:
No kidding? What do you think happened? I have flashes of losing my desire for food, but the desire comes back. Mine has been better since I've been in therapy. But it still rears its head sometimes.
So seriously, what do you think is making the desire recede?
Wow! What is this stuff? I cannot get anything from the "my supplements" link from a few days ago.
I am sooooooooooooooooo envious. :)
That's fantastic! Good job!
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