Losing Weight; Finding Men
"Never make someone a priority in your life when you are just their option."
Thursday, September 6, 2007
Trying to Heal from Back Pain
total lost: 30 lbs
total days: 80
Well I haven't lost. But I've maintained. This is good. This helps me see that I could survive, I could live like this. I've even had a meal out. I've even had some alcohol and some carbs (it will forever be yummy to me) so I know that I could maintain once I reached goal.
But the reason I know I haven't lost is because of the back pain. It just stole all my energy and spirit. I can say that today is the first day in more than two weeks that I can sit here without pain. The pain is from a combination of weakened muscles and stress so it is hard to know what is going to set if off at any given point. But I hope this improvement lasts as I try to strengthen the muscles in the area where the fat has most disappeared. Hopefully I can get to a point where I'm walking Chad again around the lake as well.
So I'm trying not to feel disappointed. See this is what happens when I set goals. All that talk about the wedding at the end of October and how I wanted to be down another 30 lbs. Since I said that I've hardly lost anything. This is why it is better for me to just look day to day and not so far ahead. That is how I lost the last 30 lbs. I didn't have a set goal date. And it just happened.