Lonely Road

Pounds lost: 4 lbs
Pounds to go: 47 lbs

Well, I'm back down to where I was last Friday. I just don't feel enthusiastic about it.

I'm lonely. That's true enough. You would think that loneliness would bring about motivation to end the loneliness, not prolong it. I feel lonely and suddenly it feels like Ben & Jerry are my only friends. But I know for a fact that my weight loss will bring about a better sense of self and a better reaction from other people to me. I will not be lonely once I feel better about myself. And I can only feel better about myself if I lose this weight. This is phase 2. I must remember that. I survived phase 1.

I'm going to think in small numbers. Maybe that will help. Ten more pounds. Ten more pounds is going to rock! Ten more pounds might require me to buy new pants because mine are falling down already. And maybe a new pair of jeans.